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08/25/2005: "She changed with the weather like the leaves I recall, She blossoms in the spring but then she's gone in the fall"

I know it's about 5 in the morning while I'm typing this, but I was laying in bed, listening to the radio (Its hard for me to sleep without it on; more on that later) and right now on Live 105 playing this show called "Rewind at noon" where they play music from the early days of Live 105 (they play a replay of the day before's show at 5 in the morning before Stern) and a listener requested Nirvanas' "ANEURYSM" and the DJ said "Aneurysm, everybody's least favorite Nirvana song." And it got me thinking, 'yeah, that one ranks kind of low on my favorite Nirvana tracks.' Then it got me thinking of other bands that were out in the early '90s. Then I reminded myself that I only started listening to alternative/rock music cause all my friends/acquaintances were listening to rock, and I wanted to be cool. It's hard to talk about music when you listen to your mom's oldies. Then it got me thinking of how my mom, helped shape my love for music. I can't play any instrument, but I love listening to it.

Now it's story time:

When we (my siblings) were babies, my mom rarely held us, I guess that's why I crave love from any woman... j/k. She would only hold us when she fed us, or changed us, then leave us in our chairs, and listen to her music while she did house work. She did it cause she knew if she held us to long, we would get used to it and always wanted to be carried. Which is the mistake my sister made and now her kids always want to be carried or get attention (Stories for another day). That brings me to what I said earlier about sleeping with the radio on; We would usually fall asleep while sitting in our chairs or in our playpen. When we (or probably just me) got older, it was harder to sleep without some noise, and harder to stay awake without it too. My sister would sometimes sleep with the TV on, I even asked her about it when I saw her turn her TV on right before going to sleep. She said she needed something on with sound, and the light from the screen acted as a nightlight. I don't know why she needed the light, but I understand why she needed the noise on.

Getting back to the main point of this entry; When we were sitting around as kids, we didn't have a choice in what we were listening to. We would have to listen to what my mom listened to, and my mom loves country western, spanish music, oldies, old spanish music, and so forth. And when I got older, I continued listening to the oldies, but while trying to fit in and talk about music, other kids didn't listen to oldies. I tried listening to rap and hiphop, and I didn't get into it, I got into a few groups/artists like NWA, Run-DMC, Ice Cube, Ice-T, and a few others. But I really couldn't get into it at the time. Around the time Junior high came up, I started flipping through the radio stations on the way to school, and landed on a rock station 98.5 KOME (R.I.P) and Howard Stern was on. I used to watch his old saturday night show or "the channel 8 show" what he refers to it now. And I would leave my radio on to help fall asleep, and when I wake up, listen to Howard Stern in the morning. And while sleeping, I would subconsciously be listening to the music, and after awhile started getting into it. Some of the bands I would always listen to were Red Hot Chili Peppers, Rage against the machine (I have the vinyl record of Evil Empire), nirvana, Green Day, Smashing Pumpkins, and so forth. When I would make a mix tape (remember those?) and I would put those bands on, plus oldies songs I liked. Some people didn't understand how I could listen to oldies, same thing today, some people (G, Adrian) don't know how I could listen to some country (Mostly Johnny Cash, Hank Williams, Don Williams, Willy Nelson), but its not what its labeled as, its the songs I like.

On my iTunes playlist I have all types of music, as long as I like the song it'll stay there. I have Red Hot Chili peppers, The Doors, Johnny Cash, Audioslave, Aerosmith, Foo Fighter, AC/DC, Weezer, Chemical Brothers, Beck, Flaming Lips, Green Day, John Frusciante's solo work, Korn, I could go on listing every band and artist I got on there, but I'm tired now. I know if it wasn't for my mom, I probably wouldn't apreciate the works of Johnny Cash. If my mom just sat us infront of the TV all day, I probably would be watching TV more than I listen to music. On an average day I listen to about 18 hours of music (consciously and subconsciously). I watch about 2-3 hours of TV on certain days, mostly just Adult Swim, and I used to watch Howard Stern's E! show, before they stopped filming new ones. On monday I watch Monday night RAW, I think its the only day I watch the most TV out of everyweek. And the rest of the day I just listen to music. Its the only thing that could still hold my attention. TV sucks now.

WellI can't say that I like all types of music, I can't listen to too much Emo music before I start feeling like one of those emo people. I could listen to some of The Used and My Chemical Romance, but I can't listen to Jimmy Eats world at all. I don't know, I can't explain it.